dearest tumblr,
dearest tumblr,
dearest tumblr,
hey tumblr, im jordyn
my life is pretty good except im losing alot of friends that once meant alot to me. and the people il ove most love other people more, my parents keep me on a pretty short leash so i cant do as much as i want to. i think ill look pretty sweet with a nose ring but im not aloud to get one... OH WELL!
my favorite holiday is yom kippur, because instead of eating my way out of the pain, i dont eat at all, this way i loose weight and i can fitt into the jeans in the back of my closet that i know that i really never will. Im not fat, but im not happy with my body. A lot of people no me well, but nobody knows my life. Ive done some things that i, myself am not proud of and i dont think i ever will be proud of. I odnt blog to often, i dont even reblog to often, but when i do its usually because i want to cry and destroy anything in my sight. Im not a bad person, i feed the homeless and donate my clothes, im a very active member in BBYO, and ithink this will help clear my sins. I lvoe making friends. Though i donth ave many friends, the ones i have kick ass<3

why cant he just like me

he did before

now he says were like siblings

apearently his friends said he should ask me out and he said…

“nah,were like siblings. you cant go out with siblings.”

it hurts os bad knowing he notices and loves me, but as a sister.

i tried everything and the worst part is he flirts with me and then i hear stories that hes hu with another different girl.

hes not the type of boy to go out with. he doesnt. only did once. wasnt his thing.

even to hu with him would be my dream.

WE WERE SO CLOSE OT HU LAST YEAR  and we didnt.

i dont know what to do anymore and getting over him has no longer become an option

all i want is to be held. to feel the other person needing me in their life. i havent felt that in a while . almost 2 years and it hurts seeing everyone around getting the one thing i need.

i dont know what to say anymore

why is this happeneing

i look at ur pictures and your not real

u were never really here

i never really felt you here with me

i shouldnt of wanted you so bad

now its so hard to close my eyes and pretend  because you always come up

leave me alone

i need to find peace with my own self

i need you

but

you dont need me

if you did

well, then i blame everything on myself

i should of stretched my arm alittle further

you drowned in pain

dont forget

never regret</3

never leave me alone..ever

sam you shud do this

sam you shud do this

(via ache)

(via ache)

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